Ash Gets Annoyed

I roleplay as a slave in SL Gor and to be honest it is starting to get me down.  Aside from all of the drama that is unleashed every single day, there are so many fuckwits running around.


I am tired of the arguments that I should not be roleplaying a slave if I am not one and that whether I am outside of Gor, in IM or using group chat I should remain in character.  Get this through your thick heads - I pay my internet bill not you and therefore I do what I want.  If you don't like it you can go fuck yourselves.


Don't lecture me about what I can and cannot do, what I can and cannot say and what I can and cannot think.  I don't care what role you are playing, you do not tell me out of character what to say, do or think.  If you do, I would suggest that you are a bully and should be reported as often as possible to Linden Labs for what amounts to little more than griefing.


The Community Standards states:-


1) Intolerance - Combating intolerance is a cornerstone of Second Life's Community Standards. Actions that marginalize, belittle, or defame individuals or groups inhibit the satisfying exchange of ideas and diminish the Second Life community as a whole.  


2) Harassment - Given the myriad capabilities of Second Life, harassment can take many forms. Communicating or behaving in a manner which is offensively coarse, intimidating or threatening, constitutes unwelcome sexual advances or requests for sexual favors, or is otherwise likely to cause annoyance or alarm is Harassment.


The Community Standards forms part of the Terms of Service which you agree to on sign up to Second Life.  If you don't like them, do us all a favour and don't log in!

Something else that is annoying me is the 'lifestyle Goreans'.  Give your heads a shake...Gor is a fantasy world created by an average writer with a good imagination.  You are not Gorean.  You cannot live like a Gorean because you don't know what a Gorean actually is.  You were born and raised on Earth so you don't have the mindset of a Gorean.  Many say that the ethos is about 'honour', but many of them do not honour themselves let alone anyone else.  The Gor books tread a very narrow path that does not give a full perspective of life - if it did, there would not be so many arguments about what should and should not take place.  Lifestyle Goreans look down on roleplayers because we only play.  Well you know what?  I look down on lifestyle Goreans.  I live and function in a real world that is not one of absolutes - your views of everything being black and white leave me cold.  I live in a world where I am master in my own home and where I am both master and slave in a working environment.  So I say to you lifestylers "take a reality check...and if you find something lacking, perhaps you need professional help".

To all of those people who say "well I have read all of the books so I know everything about Gor" I reply, "well I have a real life and am not wasting it on a badly written set of books, maybe if you got your head out of the books and actually engaged in real life you wouldn't be such a grade A twat".

The misogynistic world of Gor is impractical in real terms.  Look at our own history...slaves have rebelled (even if unsuccessfully in many cases, they still revolted against their oppression) and women have risen from their oppression in most societies too.  In order for a society to progress, there needs to be change.  Norman uses the existence of the Priest Kings to effectively stunt the whole civilisation.

So why I am roleplaying in SL Gor?  Because I enjoy roleplay for a few hours a day and the world of SL Gor is one of the most developed of the roleplay environments because of the works of John Norman.  Trust me, if I could find a roleplay environment that was based on a true and celebrated sci-fi classic like Frank Herbert's Dune novels, I would be there in the blink of an eye.

The Empty Boy

The past couple of months has been quite busy for me.  Many moons ago I signed up for classes at the Gorean University (formerly the Gorean Pleasure Silk University), but my schedule meant I could not attend.  A couple of months ago I was able to attend two of the classes that I wanted to do.

Over the course of the last few weeks both of my classes have finished.  I managed to complete both of them with grades high enough to graduate.

The kajiri dance class I did was very hard but I learned a lot about dancing in a Gorean manner - until I did the class, I had no idea there were so many different dances covered by the books.  The class helped me with my emoting skills, but had a bigger impact...it made me think about who I really am.  This was partly from reading the Dancer of Gor book.  The course was tough and dancing in front of everyone at graduation was nerve shredding.  I did manage to finish third in my class, which I was proud of.

The Pleasure Silks 101 class was also tough and also helped with emoting and awareness of many elements in Gor...such as animals, time, measurements, foods, etc.  Thankfully graduation required very little input from me!  My final score was 98.3 which is way better than I ever expected.

Both classes were fantastic and helped me so much.  Next year there is a Kajirus class, but it looks like that due to timezone differences I won't be able to attend.  There is also Pleasure Silks 201, a class I am hoping to take but...

I am not sure I have anything left to give right now.  My Master is absent and I find it hard to make my way in a Gorean world as a lone slave.  Even OOC it feels like I don't exist in his absence.  Maybe my time in Gor is coming to an end...it has been an eventful year.  I suppose that is some consolation.

Work, Work, Work

Life for a Gorean slave is not easy...

You end up working for your Master...

 

Then helping out with chores in the tavern...

Then there are chores in the city...

And then you are expected to work in the baths!

Life is hard.

Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps...

Perhaps if I was more skilled at serving.  Perhaps if I was more interesting.  Perhaps if I was a better fighter.  Perhaps if I was more pleasing in the furs.  Perhaps if I was less outspoken.  Perhaps.

Perhaps being me is not enough.  Perhaps trying my best is insufficient.  Perhaps I am different to other kajiri.  Perhaps this life is a mistake.  Perhaps.

Perhaps there is someone out there who can love me.  Perhaps there is someone out there who would be proud of me.  Perhaps I might feel as if I am not alone in this world.  Perhaps.