Monday, 9 May 2011 more

So I quit Gor.  I got tired of all the abuse I was getting OOC (out of character).  Everyone wants to play their way and no one else's.  I got sick of the whole raid, cap, rape, release nature of SL gay Gor.  It seems to have no relation to the Gor books.  Someone told me that rape was an essential part of Gor.  I said that I had only read of the rape of slaves and not Free Men going around capturing and raping other Free Men, but I was ignored.  As someone who was sexually assaulted in real life, I refuse to roleplay rape - usually it is perpetrated by some arsehole who has no idea of the physical, emotional and mental impact it carries.  I had a conversation about my real life experiences with a Gorean 'master' who told me that Gor was no place for someone who is 'handicapped' like me.  I don't see the whole point of the pixel sex thing as being such a big deal.  I went to SL Gor for roleplay; I could have gone to any number of gay for BDSM sex.  No wonder John Norman hates SL Gor so much.

Despite everything, it makes me sad that I am no longer in Gor.  All that time spent reading the books and studying at the Gorean University completing the Pleasure Silks and dance courses and I don't get to use any of it.  Of course the really sad thing is that Ash came in to existence to be a Gorean slave and now serves no purpose at all.  Goodbye Gor.  Goodbye SL.

Monday, 14 February 2011

The Lost Boy

Having been separated from his Master for quite some time, Ash the kajirus is finding it harder to cope.  He has survived in the wild during the coldest time of the year, eating what he could, sleeping where he could, but the strain is beginning to show.  He is dirty and hungry, feeling despair as he thinks he will never have a home again.  

The residents of the isle either do not notice him or else believe his words that he "must get home to Master".  There is no master and home is amongst the animals in one of the sheds, but so few people new the man that Ash loved as a master that no one questions him.  

Ash conceals the truth of what has occurred out of fear of what will become of him.  After the harsh winter, how much longer can he go on alone?

Ash - The Lost Boy

Just Being Honest

Outlaw: Boy!  How dare you walk past without greeting me?

Ash: Sorry, Master but my mother taught me never to speak to strangers...

I think that falls in to the category of ask a silly question, get a silly answer!  Oddly enough he let me go.  He was probably too exasperated to continue with his need to be greeted by every slave, but I was just being honest.

Friday, 7 January 2011

Random Thoughts On SL Gor

Given the limited range of Gorean musical instruments and the absence of electricity, why do so many Gorean sims have pounding rock music?  Surely classical, folk or world music would be more appropriate.

Is there such a thing as the Caste of Tattooists?  So many male avatars are covered with tattoos I am sure Tattooists should be a High Caste purely based on there apparent numbers!

Why do cities often have an Ubar instead of an Administrator?  Is everyone permanently at war?

As typical clothing is a tunic, how has the Caste of Fashionistas managed to convince so many men to wear leather pants or kilts?

Free Men seem to have they not realise that marks them as 'pierced ear sluts' who shall never be anything more than slaves?

Wednesday, 5 January 2011

The End Is Nigh...Or Now

Last week the world fell apart for Ash, the Gorean slave.  He lost his Master and his Home Stone in Gor.  Out of character I lost my roleplay and I lost everything I had worked for in attending the Gorean University.  My Master showed a lack of interest in me for too long and something I can't speak of happened which made me realise just how worthless I actually am.  So I walked out on everything, even had to give up my little home.

I hurts me that I was of no value to him as I went back to Gor after a break especially to be his kajirus.  It hurts me even more that he has not tried to make contact with me to explain or discus the situation.

As soon as I announced I was leaving I started to receive offers from other Gorean Masters who are interested in acquiring me, but it is too soon and my wounds are too raw.  There are currently six men willing to take me in.  What is to say that it won't happen again?  Perhaps I will be a disappointment to future Masters too.

Only two people from Tabor have contacted me - so I guess I know what they think of me too.

Saturday, 18 December 2010

Ash Gets Annoyed

I roleplay as a slave in SL Gor and to be honest it is starting to get me down.  Aside from all of the drama that is unleashed every single day, there are so many fuckwits running around.

I am tired of the arguments that I should not be roleplaying a slave if I am not one and that whether I am outside of Gor, in IM or using group chat I should remain in character.  Get this through your thick heads - I pay my internet bill not you and therefore I do what I want.  If you don't like it you can go fuck yourselves.

Don't lecture me about what I can and cannot do, what I can and cannot say and what I can and cannot think.  I don't care what role you are playing, you do not tell me out of character what to say, do or think.  If you do, I would suggest that you are a bully and should be reported as often as possible to Linden Labs for what amounts to little more than griefing.

The Community Standards states:-

1) Intolerance - Combating intolerance is a cornerstone of Second Life's Community Standards. Actions that marginalize, belittle, or defame individuals or groups inhibit the satisfying exchange of ideas and diminish the Second Life community as a whole.  

2) Harassment - Given the myriad capabilities of Second Life, harassment can take many forms. Communicating or behaving in a manner which is offensively coarse, intimidating or threatening, constitutes unwelcome sexual advances or requests for sexual favors, or is otherwise likely to cause annoyance or alarm is Harassment.

The Community Standards forms part of the Terms of Service which you agree to on sign up to Second Life.  If you don't like them, do us all a favour and don't log in!

Something else that is annoying me is the 'lifestyle Goreans'.  Give your heads a shake...Gor is a fantasy world created by an average writer with a good imagination.  You are not Gorean.  You cannot live like a Gorean because you don't know what a Gorean actually is.  You were born and raised on Earth so you don't have the mindset of a Gorean.  Many say that the ethos is about 'honour', but many of them do not honour themselves let alone anyone else.  The Gor books tread a very narrow path that does not give a full perspective of life - if it did, there would not be so many arguments about what should and should not take place.  Lifestyle Goreans look down on roleplayers because we only play.  Well you know what?  I look down on lifestyle Goreans.  I live and function in a real world that is not one of absolutes - your views of everything being black and white leave me cold.  I live in a world where I am master in my own home and where I am both master and slave in a working environment.  So I say to you lifestylers "take a reality check...and if you find something lacking, perhaps you need professional help".

To all of those people who say "well I have read all of the books so I know everything about Gor" I reply, "well I have a real life and am not wasting it on a badly written set of books, maybe if you got your head out of the books and actually engaged in real life you wouldn't be such a grade A twat".

The misogynistic world of Gor is impractical in real terms.  Look at our own history...slaves have rebelled (even if unsuccessfully in many cases, they still revolted against their oppression) and women have risen from their oppression in most societies too.  In order for a society to progress, there needs to be change.  Norman uses the existence of the Priest Kings to effectively stunt the whole civilisation.

So why I am roleplaying in SL Gor?  Because I enjoy roleplay for a few hours a day and the world of SL Gor is one of the most developed of the roleplay environments because of the works of John Norman.  Trust me, if I could find a roleplay environment that was based on a true and celebrated sci-fi classic like Frank Herbert's Dune novels, I would be there in the blink of an eye.

Sunday, 12 December 2010

The Empty Boy

The past couple of months has been quite busy for me.  Many moons ago I signed up for classes at the Gorean University (formerly the Gorean Pleasure Silk University), but my schedule meant I could not attend.  A couple of months ago I was able to attend two of the classes that I wanted to do.

Over the course of the last few weeks both of my classes have finished.  I managed to complete both of them with grades high enough to graduate.

The kajiri dance class I did was very hard but I learned a lot about dancing in a Gorean manner - until I did the class, I had no idea there were so many different dances covered by the books.  The class helped me with my emoting skills, but had a bigger made me think about who I really am.  This was partly from reading the Dancer of Gor book.  The course was tough and dancing in front of everyone at graduation was nerve shredding.  I did manage to finish third in my class, which I was proud of.

The Pleasure Silks 101 class was also tough and also helped with emoting and awareness of many elements in Gor...such as animals, time, measurements, foods, etc.  Thankfully graduation required very little input from me!  My final score was 98.3 which is way better than I ever expected.

Both classes were fantastic and helped me so much.  Next year there is a Kajirus class, but it looks like that due to timezone differences I won't be able to attend.  There is also Pleasure Silks 201, a class I am hoping to take but...

I am not sure I have anything left to give right now.  My Master is absent and I find it hard to make my way in a Gorean world as a lone slave.  Even OOC it feels like I don't exist in his absence.  Maybe my time in Gor is coming to an has been an eventful year.  I suppose that is some consolation.